Wear A Mask But Make It Fashion
I never thought I would have to wear a mask in public, nor did I think it would be such a controversy to wear one either. When I had to put on a mask I felt a lot of feelings. I had feelings of frustration, anxiety, confinement, but all were mostly negative. Then I opened my eyes to people who were truly being effected by the pandemic.
I know this has been said a million times, and I hate saying it myself, but this is without a doubt a crazy time. Not only are we still fighting racial injustice and systemic racism (that I needed to open my eyes about a long time ago), but we are also fighting a global pandemic. I think this has effected all people in some way (losing your job to loss of loved ones). That seems super dark but it is true no matter the statistic or percentage it can potentially come to that without a vaccine. When I found out that I was put on furlough my heart sank - security of being able to pay my bills and to live my life, out the window. Before, I felt like I was invincible that I wouldn’t be plagued by this virus but here we are 4 ½ months later. Once I finally got out of my negative feelings and feeling sorry for myself I realized this could have been so much worse. I started thinking about my furloughed coworkers who have kids, my boss that had to tell all of our employees they didn’t have a job for the time being, my sweet sister that had to postpone her wedding, my amazing friend that is doing God’s work as a nurse that had to experience COVID 19 on the front lines every day. I could go on a lot longer, but I just started thinking about other people and their situations. I needed to really look inward and be grateful for what I had, because I had a lot to be grateful for. I have my health and the health of my loved ones, I’m still getting funds to pay my bills, I have health insurance, and time. Time to work on myself and my wildest dreams.
For about the last 5 years I have been working on average 50 hours a week. My fellow coworkers can attest to this too. I have been so passionate about my job that it got to a point that it was defining who I was and I didn’t realize that until this past April. I had wanted so badly to have a break and time to myself. To say I had gotten what I wished for was an understatement. I figured I could look at it two ways. I could sit here and be mad and feel like everything is happening to me, or I can get up and keep going because this is happening for me. A little Rachel Hollis plug for you there, yes I absolutely adore her. Anyways!
I decided to think what made me really happy in my life and referred back to what my values were. From there I was able to remember the things I still wanted to achieve, like starting this blog. And it’s about dang time! There is value and purpose in this season. My purpose was to slow down, look inward, and remember what my dreams and goals were. It’s easy to get caught up in everything that is happening around you but I encourage you to take some deep breaths in the present and control what is in your control. Never stop dreaming.
Outfit Credit: H&M Boyfriend jeans, Danielle Bernstein X Macy’s Solid Handkerchief Top, DIY mask and chain.
DIY Mask and Chain:
Chain: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07VCD8LQB/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o03_s01?ie=UTF8&psc=1
Mask: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0888991JR/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o03_s01?ie=UTF8&psc=1